I've spent my entire life trying to be normal, to blend in, or go unnoticed. I am/was very good at it- well most of the time. Now, I feel like someone has opened me up and taken all these things, I've worked so hard to hide but never realized were there, and put a spot light on them for the world to see (hey, look at me I like to be cuffed, spanked, and have a dick shoved down my throat- omg is that me?). Of course, the reality is that I opened myself up, I have turned the light on, and as far as the "world" seeing me for what I am, that would be all of you and my husband :).
I'm trying to accept all of this, accept me. How can I want this while I still haven't accepted it?
I'm in a big world that I know very little about. It's scary and exciting.
Oh and by the way, 12 years ago today was the first day I started dating my husband! I'm so happy I said yes, one of the best choices I've made.