Friday, January 10, 2014

Not Talking

Something is wrong.

And I'm not talking about it.

I refuse.

That's right, you heard me correctly. No typos there.

I refuse.

I don't like refusing. I feel like I'm being ripped in half.

Master knows something is wrong. I realize now that there is no point in hiding when something is wrong, because he always knows. And I hate that. But I love him for it.

It is possible I should give in.

Why won't I talk about it? Well, if I said why then that would be talking... and I'm not talking.

Am I being ridiculous and acting like an adolescent child? I sure am.

Will I regret this post tomorrow? I sure will.

Do I care at the moment? I sure don't.

My lips are zipped and I threw away the key.

10 comments:

  1. (((Hugs))) Misty, I hope you figure it out soon. You know it is best to talk to him :)

    Hugs,
    Roz

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    1. Roz, you are right, I know it is best. The weight is getting heavier and I'm sure to talk. It hasn't always been this way, I once was good about not talking and getting over it on my own...

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  2. Sometimes its ok to wait to talk. You know at some point you need to but there is nothing wrong with getting past the emotions first so that the conversation remains constructive. And explain to him that's what you are doing so he doesn't worry. Hugs to you!

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    1. Thanks little girl. My thoughts keep skipping around and turning me upside down. I just don't know how to handle it, I'm not used to feeling so strongly about things. It sucks...

      But I think you're right, I probably wouldn't make any sense if I tried to talk right now lol

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  3. my goodness, did you steal this from my drafts folder?!

    ((((hugs))) I so relate. Hope you feel better soon and either you can talk or it passes or both xxx

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    1. mc kitten, I was hoping I wasn't the only one!!

      Thank you!

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  4. Remember,, not taking can create huge misunderstandings. However, talking while in an emotional state can actually have the subject matter not addressed because everything else was thrown in the pot. Do some writing so you can see some clarification. ((Hugs)) I'm here, if needed.

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    1. Thank you Hs. I should have written it out, I want to, but I refused to do even that. All part of a point I was trying to make. FYI it didn't work. Next time I will write.

      You being here means a lot, thank you so much!!!

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  5. I can't really comment on this...because I've been there and I don't know how to fix it....most times talking to My Love is the answer....and eventually I see it....sometimes it takes longer for me to see it....hug!

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    1. Jacy, it is so hard to see it when you don't want to!! Glad I'm not alone. Thank you!

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