Interesting thing, it may not always a good thing to hold a storm inside you. What?! You mean to tell me, you already knew that and you didn't tell me?! Humph.
The problem is, I can't tell when I should and when I shouldn't. It is not usually a good thing to let go of a storm without thinking first. Horrible things can happen, especially when the mouth isn't cooperating with the brain. Who's with me here?
I held it in as long as I could. Obviously, the problem kept growing, and I kept feeling worse about myself. Guess that could have been a clue.
Anyway, we talked. This time, the mouth and brain were in agreement, though they were both a little crazy (thankfully, Master didn't like my solution for the problem). The end result is that, we are really good, so that's great.
I started writing this post last night and was unable to finish, which I'm thankful for because it has given me a chance to ponder where I went wrong. I couldn't figure out at what point I should have opened up and told Master what was in my head. Then it dawned on me, maybe it is never good to hold in a storm. Maybe the important thing is how the storm is released.
I just...didn't want to burden him. And truth be told, I didn't want to hear what he would say. Sometimes it is the kindest of words that send daggers through my heart.
I know, I know, communication is key, but it is not always easy...