You might think it gets easier to deal with after so much of it, but nope, it just gets worse. I'm not sure if I'm just more disappointed in myself or if Master is getting better at inflicting guilt, probably a little of both.
This weekend it reached a whole new level. A level that resulted in me
It's over now, but the shadow is still there.
I wonder if I will ever learn.
I have learned that the more I open up and allow myself to feel, the more vulnerable I am to getting my feelings hurt by others, so it's not just Master that can hurt me...yay. I guess I just need to be more careful about what parts of me I share.
But, today is a new day, and I will move on :)