Before my last post, we talked--well, I talked, he listened. He knows how I feel, and that I want more. And me, being who I am, knowing he knows and having nothing done about it, is driving me insane. I mean, how hard is it to stick a plug up my ass, or whack me a few times with the cane, or tell me to put on the corset, or tell me to shut up and get over it? Hell, at this point he could tell me to brush my teeth and I would probably calm down, lol.
But see, if he wanted to do those things, he would. It is his right to do or not do. And it's upsetting that I'm not okay with that, at this point in time.
I just feel like I have so much to give, and I'm left unused.
Sure, I could put in a plug myself -he would be pleased to know I did that for him- but I wouldn't get what I want out of that. I would feel no power/control from that.
I think, this time, I'm just going to have to work through it on my own.
I'm upset, but I'm okay--I know it will work out the way it is supposed to.