Back to the post before last (see here), I think what worried me was that I was/am going to lose myself, or get so caught up in D/s that I forget about everything else. One, it is ridiculous to think he would ever let me forget about everything else. Two, after reading the comments on said post, I have concluded that obsession is just part of the deal and I just need to get used to it. Three, this obsession is not a bad thing--I'm a better, happier person because of D/s, and anything that can do that, can't be bad.
And my last post (see here), sigh. I know I shouldn't mix the two -my dad, and Master-, but that's easier said then done. Logically, I know Daddy is just a name, but in my head it's more than that. It's a lot of illogical things that have nothing to do with the name or Master. However, I can't deny that when the name is applied to Master, it leaves me with a sense of security. One of the many things I can't help but wonder is, if I feel more secure because I lacked that security when I was a child...and, if that's so, I think that is really messed up.
I've read a few things on Daddy Dom's, and the name fits Master.
I don't know, the whole thing has got me really confused and I'm just not ready to explore my feelings, any more than I have done here. Maybe once it isn't so new...
And unless he tells me to do otherwise, Master will be used on the blog until...some point in time.
Also, it's very important that everyone knows that I'm only applying this to myself. I don't think others are messed up if they like/use the name Daddy. Truly, I have absolutely no judgement to pass there.