An issue, since pretty much day one, that we can't seem to resolve, is the time I spend online. I have days when I'm hardly ever online, except for work stuff, and I have days when I'm on a lot. I try to keep a balance, but it's clear I totally suck at this. It's not just the time I spend here, but Facebook and games, and all that.
There really is no good time to blog (two young kids at home and all that comes along with that, I work 2-3 hours a day, from home, for another company, and there's our business that is never-ending work) so I just make the time, which, again, is never a good time.
He knows being here is good for me...
He wants my chores to be done first. My problem is that there are always chores, always. There is always something that needs to be done.
Anyway, he will tell me to get off the computer, I finish what I'm doing and maybe even do a little more, or I will say something stupid and/or disrespectful (instead of inserting my foot into my mouth, like I should), and then I will log off.
There is a rebel in me that I can't seem to get past.
I know that if it has gotten to the point where he says something, he is not happy. I know this, yet I still give him a hard time...I don't mean to! I just do. I usually see the mistake after the fact...that has to count for something, right?
This doesn't just happen with this, there's other stuff that I give him a hard time about, when he is just trying to help me.
I even do this when I'm feeling my submission!
It's completely ridiculous and not at all acceptable.
He pointed out how difficult I make this for him. He is right, I do. I would have given up a long time ago if I were him. I can imagine how hard it must be--him trying to get comfortable with this stuff, when I don't comply.
I guess I need to...give myself more time to get it right?