Well, that's happened to me like a million times in the past two years. Lol. Not that abc (and def, and ghi, and jkl, and...) wasn't a problem, because it was, but it just wasn't the crux.
Now, I've come to the conclusion that I don't trust myself.
I just don't.
And, I hate myself.
So I look to him.
I trust his judgement because I know him, I know where he came from, and I know he has a sound mind.
I don't trust myself because I know where I came from.
Maybe I'm not being fair to myself, but...
I don't know...
Anyway, things are changing around here. I love change.
It has only been a few days and I am kinda worried that he will decide he really doesn't want change (you know, waiting for the other shoe to drop), but...
Punishment is going to be more of a thing.
We also bought a plug that is going to be for daily use. It's en route-- it could be in Opa-locka, FL, but that's just a wild guess ;).
He is expecting more, enforcing more.
We're talking more, which freaks me out on a whole new level (one of these days he is going to run for the hills, I swear).
I need all of it but, more importantly, at this point in time, I need to know his sound mind doesn't see me as I see me, that it is really okay, and that he wants it, too.