Maybe I should write about not leaving blogland more often. :)
I love all the comments and interaction on my last post! Seriously, you guys are going to give me a big head.
I started in a hormonal funk, then moved to a blogging funk, now I'm in a I-have-too-much-shit-to-do funk.
I checked out two books at the library. Two! I knew better.
I found these free online courses, I signed up for five or six of them. (I want to learn, darn it!) All start at different times, but some overlap, there's three going on right now. I have no clue why I did that.
The house is a mess. I can't freaking keep up (kids...).
Weeds are starting to take over the garden again.
Summer is half over and I need to do more fun stuff with the girls. (Very important to me.)
I haven't been baking bread, or planning dinners (it's a rule *sigh*), or exercising.
The list just goes on and on.
"Why are you here blogging?" I hear you ask.
Because...I'm lazy? I don't know!
I know I'm overwhelmed by it all.
And I want to hide in front of the computer.
Someone died yesterday, while they were on vacation. And I can't do anything to help.
It's times like this that I want him to control me more.
I want to feel the (metaphorical) whip crack behind me.
I want to find a spot at his feet, and just be.
But, I feel like I should take care of my responsibilities before I ask for such things. Sure, I know it would help straighten my thoughts out, but I kinda wonder if it enables me, in a bad way...
That's it. I'm off to clean...or bake bread...or pull weeds...