There is a cavern for a father that protects with fierce love. Gaps in space and moments in time left empty because he should have been something he wasn't made to be. It's a place that keeps me from throwing away a birthday card I didn't even want.
"I do love you immensely."
And pain drips down my face.
Trust was carved out of my heart by a monster who wanted my innocence before I had a chance to know any different.
No one is who they seem.
Holes drilled through foundation by a mom, with love in her heart, whom lead me to believe I wasn't worth the fight. She blinded herself when I needed her the most.
"I don't know why I try."
She didn't try.
Now, I am an adult with holes.
Holes that couldn't be filled, until they could.
They are filled by him with love that looks cruel and care that looks like pain, in place that appears to be dark, but there is only light.
It's my shame that he has taken as his own. Something I don't deserve, but I will do my best to repay.
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