Obviously, it has changed.
It is my (irrational) way of screaming that I'm in pain.
I cannot stand to see that name. It pains me, like a dagger piercing through my soul.
This blog is a reflection of me. I'm here to be honest, not for you, but to be honest with myself. Before these pages started, I tried very hard to be someone I wasn't, I kept pieces of me in the darkest corner I could find and I ignored them. I can't stress how important it is to me to keep this honesty going. I cannot lose sight of what's inside me.
Yes, it's where I want to be, but the other name isn't where I am right now.
I don't have many places to express what's going on inside...the new name and new look has helped me express that. I do hope it's not permanent.