One second, it's this problem, and the next it's another problem. Then I end up wondering if those problems are really problems or if they are a result of a bigger problem. Maybe it's not even a big problem. Maybe it's little problems that manifest with the other little problems.
I don't fucking know.
Communication is clearly a big problem.
My guilt is a big problem.
I feel like he's not into this, and that's a big problem.
I used to be easy going. It's unfair that I lost that, don't you think? It would be super useful now.
It's hard talking about what I want and what I think I need because I don't want that to get in the way of what he wants...but he wants me to be happy...and what would make me happy is to do what he wants to do.
I have a new rule, I'm not allowed to say no.
And my plug schedule has changed.
And I get to wear my collar while the kids are at school.
Yes, I have almost three hours a day without kids. I forgot what it was like.